I have been so tired and sick for a week now. I am not sure what got me there….maybe the weather, maybe the holiday hectic, or? who knows….
Oh well…just not really ready for Christmas.
I am not sure I am enjoying Christmas here in the US. It feels different. For what I can tell for myself, Christmas here is more about giving gift, searching and racing to get the perfect gift for our beloved and friends wish lists, parties, etc. Well, those are nice..but not really connect with me well.
I am used to a simple Christmas, with a lot of activities in the church. Get involved in the Christmas events, visiting friends and families, being in the choir or making a children choir for my church in Indonesia.
Those are more meaningful for me….than shopping, getting hectic, partying, getting lots of gifts.
I miss spending Christmas with my family in Indonesia. At these time, beside tons of activities in my church or work, I helped my family making cake, decorating the tree, writing on the Christmas cards, etc.
And usually, December is a rainy season… so, mostly I got wet whenever I went. But it didn’t bother me to go places…no car, just public transportation.
All was enjoyable…no complaint.
I complaint more here….. maybe because I am lonely? or miss my old friends? and mostly miss being with my family.
I loveeee my family here….being with my three boys are very precious. But I am part of my family and friends in Indonesia as well. So, I can never get over it.
God..give me peace, love and wisdom.
Amen.